Headed to bed soon (actually, it is SO MUCH BETTER than just that - I am going to bed on a Tempurpedic mattress with Egyptian cotton sheets, with a belly full of Neo Citran!) ... anyway, I wanted to share with you what I thought about a lot while running today.
I have several friends who have been struggling lately with feelings of "what's it all about?", questioning their own value and accomplishments to date. I think it comes with the mid-life territory (and I have been there).
Here is what I think. None of it means anything! AND it means whatever you want it to mean.
What you have done up until now does not count for squat. So what??? You succeeded in the past? So what? You failed in the past? So what? Everything starts anew every morning. If you choose to rest on your laurels you are going to get bored real fast. If you choose to wallow in your regrets, you will find that you can build nothing new on that. I have succeeded hugely, and found that I still had to get up the next morning and create all new results. I have also failed spectacularly, and was pleasantly surprised to find that the sun still rose again and that there was every bit as much life to live and potential to be realized as ever before.
The past - learn what you can from it and put it away!
What you say you are going to do in the future only matters if you are actually going to do it. The value in tomorrow is using it to determine what you are going to do today. Go ahead and make plans, set goals, share them. And then DO SOMETHING NOW!! Start as small as you feel you need to or as big as you want to. BUT START!
And what can you do now? Anything. Really. You may want to tell me that you have responsibilities, and I say GREAT. Then choose to have those responsibilities and do awesome stuff anyway. ESPECIALLY if those responsibilities are your kids. DO NOT MODEL "LIVING A SHITTY LIFE BECAUSE YOU HAVE KIDS" FOR THEM. Model having an amazing life of which your kids are an integral part.
Hopefully everyone who is going to UNFRIEND me for this next piece of unsolicited advice has already done so, but feel free to if you'd like. THROW OUT YOUR FUCKING TELEVISION. Stop watching other people play sports - play yourself. Stop watching other people on reality tv - go create a reality way cooler than they can even dream of. Quit watching mindless sitcoms - go out and laugh with real friends. Don't have any? Get involved in stuff and make some!! Stop watching bad news about what an awful place the world is. Go make the world better.
YOU HAVE CHOSEN THE LIFE THAT YOU HAVE. IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT, CHOOSE A BETTER ONE. WILL IT BE EASY? NO! BUT HOW EASY IS GOING THROUGH EVERY DAY WISHING THINGS WERE DIFFERENT AND DOING NOTHING ABOUT IT? You have tried and failed? Try again. And again. AND AGAIN. FOREVER!!!
Maybe you absolutely love your life - and I have a lot of friends who do. That is awesome and I applaud you. Keep doing what you are doing. Do not take any of it for granted. And help others any chance you get.
By the way, I did not run a particularly great race today. I slowed considerably in the second half and did not set a personal best time. In fact it was my second worst time ever. But I LOVED it! I saw so many people busting out of their comfort zones. I saw so many people cheering and supporting complete strangers. I saw so many people volunteering their time. And I loved them all and I love you.
And now the Neo Citran is kicking in. Wheeeeeeeeee! Good night ♥